i'm without you, i'm over you. oh!

Never have I Ever...
Put an X for everything you've done.
Lived on the east coast:	X.
Gone to New York City:	X. (I'm here now.)
Lived on the west coast:
Lived in the United States:	X.
Been to California:
Been to Mexico:
Been out of the country:	X.
Made out in a car:	X.
Made out with someone you just met:	X.
Done something more with someone you just met:
Performed on stage:	X.
Been in drama club:	X.
Been in a varsity sport:	X. (Band technically counts,kids!)
Had sex:
Made out with someone who was just a friend:	X.
Smoked pot:
Been high:
Gotten drunk:	X.
Been drunk and high at the same time:
Driven a car legally:	X.
Driven a car illegally:	X.
Been in a honors / AP class:	X.
Gotten straight A's:	X.
Listened to music you couldn't stand for more than ten minutes:	X. (In the devil class.)
Spent more than six hundred dollars in one store:
Written a story:	X.
Written a song:	X.
Written a poem:	X.
Sang in front of a large group of people:	X.
Been in marching band:	X.
Made fun of the kids in marching band:	X. (Ha.)
Had an IM conversation with someone you didn't know:	X.
Baked cookies:	X. (I'm doing that now!)
Watched a movie made before 1940:	(I wasn't born yet...)
Watched a silent film:
Been to a Gay Pride Parade:
Been to any other Pride Parade:
Met Hilary Clinton:
Sworn to commit suicide if Hilary Clinton became president:
Moshed:	X.
Beaten someone up:
Been beated up:
Cried yourself to sleep:	X.
Had an eating disorder:	X.
Been professionally diagnosed with a mental disorder (OCD, depression...):
Had a member of your family die:
Seriously considered suicide:
Taken more than the reccomended dosage on any medication:	X.
Felt infinite:	X. (I love this book.)
Been in love:	\. A half x. I don't know, maybe.
Played a musical instrument for a large group of people:	X.
Wished you were warmer:	X.
Wished you were colder:	X.
Been unhappy with your appearance:	X.
Intentionally hurt yourself:
Been dumped:	X.
Dumped someone:	X.
Had a Myspace:	X.
Had a Xanga:	X.
Made out with someone of the opposite sex:	X.
Made out with someone of the same sex:
Been afraid someone close to you was going to commit suicide:	X.
Been physically / sexually abused:	Uh, not seriously. I had an experience that was at least somewhat assault, but it didn't go to sex, so I don't feel right saying yes here.
Gotten a really expensive gift from someone you didn't expect it from:	X.
Surprised someone:	X.
Had a rumor spread about you:	X.
Helped spread a rumor:	X.
Broken a law:	X.
Been chased by the police:
Been to a wild party:	X.
Eaten sushi:
Eaten tofu:	X.
Felt loved:	X.
Felt unloved:	X.
Liked techno:	X.
Liked rap:	X.
Liked rock:	X.
Liked music your parents liked:	X.
Been to another continent:	X.
Been to Hawaii:
Swam in an ocean:	X.
Won a contest:	X.
Gotten an award:	X.
Sewn something:	X.
Acted on stage:	X.
Pretended to be happy:	X.
Lied for the benefit of a friend:	X.
Kept a secret from your best friend:	X.
Waited longer than you should have to tell someone something:	X.
Messed everything up:	X.
Pulled everything back together:	X.
Been fluent in another language:	X.
Given terrible advice:	X.
Given great advice:	X.
Been given terrible advice:	X.
Been given life-saving advice:	X.
Had something from Starbucks:	X.
Known that Starbucks is superior to Dunkin Donuts:	X.
Hated a genre of music:	X.
Played the party game 'Never Have I Ever':	X.
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Best Christmas Survey EVAR
Basics
How long have you been celebrating Christmas?:	Um, pretty much since I can remember. Yeah.
Why do you celebrate Christmas?:	Because we are Christians, I suppose, but really just because we aren't anything else.
Who do you celebrate with?:	My family.
Where do you celebrate?:	At home.
Decorations
When do you start decorating?:	Right after Thanksgiving nowadays.
Who decorates?:	Mostly my mom.
Do you buy new decorations every year?:	No, certainly not.
What's your favorite decoration?:	I like a lot of Christmas ornaments.
Do you decorate outside or just inside?:	Both, but personally really only inside.
What's your oldest decoration?:	Definitely ornaments.
What kind of lights do you put up?:	Ummm, I don't know anymore. Icicles?
Do you put lights on your house?:	Yes.
White or colored?:	Uhhh, colored, I believe.
The Tree!
What kind of tree do you have?:	A fake kind. We have too many pets.
When do you buy/put up your tree?:	Right after Thanksgiving since that's when I'm home.
Who decorates it?:	All of us usually.
Do you decorate it the same every year?:	Essentially.
How long do you keep it up after Christmas?:	Uh, not very long.
What do you have as a tree topper?:	An angel.
Does your mom put the decorations from when you were little on it?:	Yeah.
What's your favorite ornament?:	I DON'T KNOW. I can't summon the energy to remember.
The Music!
When do you start listening to Christmas music?:	After Thanksgiving.
What's your least favorite Christmas song?:	Something that's not fun.
Why don't you like it?:	Because it isn't fun.
Do you sing along with the christmas music?:	Yes.
Do you sing Christmas music wherever you go?:	No.
What was your favorite song when you were little?:	Oh, I don't know. Silent Night. I used to sing along with it on my keyboard. How cute.
Do you listen to music while you decorate?:	Yep. Usually Bing.
The Food!
Who does the cooking/baking in your house?:	Mostly my mom. But I'm usually the agent for baking.
When do you start baking?:	Whenever I get home for the break.
Do you listen to music while you bake/cook?:	Yep! I love to do that, with my iPod.
What's your traditional Christmas dinner?:	I don't know that we particularly have one.
What's the weirdest thing your family eats at Christmas?:	Nothing really. One year on New Years we ate sauerkraut. I think I ate one slice of cabbage/lettuce whatever it was.
Does your mom make a punch bowl?:	No.
If family comes over, do they bring food?:	Yeah.
The Presents!
What's the first present you remember opening?:	Probably a Barbie.
When do you open your gifts?:	Christmas morning, whenever all the kids wake each other up.
What's the weirdest present you've ever gotten?:	Oh, I don't know. We usually get underwear from our grandma.
What's the weirdest present you've ever given?:	I don't think I really give weird gifts.
Do you do White Elephant exchanges?:	I don't know what that is.
If so, what have you gotten?:	--
Do you prefer to wrap gifts or to buy them and have someone else wrap them?:	Wrap them myself, damn it!
Have you ever paid to have the people at the mall wrap your presents?:	No.
Did your mom ever get you cool wrapping paper?:	Oh yeah. Last year we got wrapping paper with our names on it. Sweeet.
Have you ever had to give someone a gift when you didn't want to?:	Yep.
What's your least favorite gift that you've ever gotten?:	I dont' know.
Traditions!
Do you have any traditions?:	Yes.
What's your favorite tradition?:	But I'm not going to think about them.
What's your least favorite tradition?:
When you have a family, what traditions will you keep?:	The tree, the mistletoe, the playing Bing Crosby, staying home.
Which ones will you get rid of?:	I've pretty much morphed our Christmas into what I want, so nothing really.
Will you start your own traditions?:	Probably.
What will you do?:	Don't know.
Random!
Have you ever seen mommy kissing santa clause?:	No.
do you hear what I hear?:	No.
Is there anything else that I forgot that you want to share?:	No.
Are you in the holiday spirit yet?:	Not really. I have two finals left, packing/flight/situations to worry about, and it's still warm.
What's your favorite Christmas cookie?:	Sugar with icing and sprinkles.
Are you listening to christmas music while you take this?:	No.
How do you listen to your Christmas music (online, cds, radio, etc)?:	iPod.
Christmas TV!
What's your least favorite Christmas movie?:	Stop-motion freaks me out, but I like them.
What's your favorite Christmas TV special?:	Rudolph.
What's your least favorite?:	...
Do you watch Christmas stuff as a family or by yourself?:	Family.
Do you watch the same stuff every year?:	Yeah.
Favorite Christmas movie?:	White Christmas.
More Random!
Do you enjoy shopping during the holiday season?:	Yeah.
Do you go shopping after Christmas for all the holiday deals?:	Not really.
Where's your favorite place to celebrate Christmas?:	At home.
If you could do anything for Christmas, what would it be?:	I'm fine with doing what I do.
Where would your ideal Christmas be spent?:	At home.
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what i want from this, is learn to let go

if your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be?

so, here's how it works:

1. open your portable device (Ipod, etc)
2. put it on shuffle
3. press play
4. for every question, type the next song that's playing
5. don't lie

Opening Credits: "Scarborough Fair/Canticle" - Simon & Garfunkel

Waking Up: "Gone" - Kelly Clarkson

First Day of High school: "You Make Me Wanna" - Usher

Falling in Love: "You and Me" - Lifehouse

Fight Song: "New York, New York" - Ryan Adams

Breaking Up: "Symphony No. 5 in B-flat major K 22.2 Andante" - Mozart

Prom: "I Will Carry You" - Clay Aiken

Life: "Elephant Love Medley" - Ewan McGregor/Nicole Kidman

Mental Breakdown: "St. Elsewhere" - Gnarls Barkley

Driving: "The River" - Garth Brooks

Flashback: "She Has No Time" - Keane

Getting Back Together: "What A Girl Wants" - Christina Aguilera

Wedding: "WhaIt's the End of the World As We Know It" - R.E.M.

Birth of a Child: "Get Ur Freak On" - Missy Elliott

Final Battle: "I Know We Could Be So Happy Baby (If We Wanted To Be)" - Jeff Buckley

Death Scene: "Crazy" - Aerosmith

Funeral: "Hold On" - Wilson Phillips

End Credits: "Fuck the Pain Away" - Peaches



Ha. Some of those are wildly inappropriate. Others are really good.

Ok, I am SO sick of those usual questions
SOME STUFF BOUT YOU
NICKNAME THAT YOU HATE:	I don't really hate any of my nicknames.
HEIGHT THAT YOU WANNA BE:	I'm fine with being short.
PART OF YOU THAT YOU LOVE:	Well, I'm pretty unhappy with most things right now, so ... um ... I guess that's a bit difficult to currently answer.
CHILDLIFE
DID YOU LIKE YOUR CHILDHOOD:	Yeah, sure.
DID YOUR PARENTS STAY TOGETHER:	No.
ANY SIBLINGS:	Yeah, one sister.
EVER GO TO DISNEYLAND?:	No. Disneyworld, yes.
WHEN DID YOU FIGURE OUT SANTA AND THE EASTER BUNNY AREN'T REAL:	Pretty early, I think. I remember sitting in the kitchen, just looking up and saying, "Santa's not real, is he?" I really do remember how that felt.
FAVORITE CHILDHOOD MEMORY:	Oh, I don't know.
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU FIRST LIKED THE OPPOSITE SEX:	Good question. Seemingly kindergarten, but I really don't remember anything significant until 4th grade-ish, so that makes me what ... nine maybe?
WHO WERE YOUR CHILDHOOD FRIENDS:	I had quite a few. Listing them would be idiotic. Mostly neighborhood or school kids.
FAVORITE ACTIVITIES AS A KID:	Reading, bike riding, maybe other things, I don't know. I remember doing those ridiculous hair wrap things, playing Frogger in basements, and writing on the sidewalk with chalk, and swimming as other things.
PICK ONE!
SODA/WATER:	Water.
RICE KRISPIES/COOKIES:	Rice Krispies.
DR PEPPER/ ROOT BEER:	Dr. Pepper.
SPORTS/MUSIC:	Music.
MOVIES/BOOKS:	Movies.
WILL TURNER/CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW:	Captain Jack. That's so easy, even though they're both attractive. Will is adorable, and sweet, and even hot, but Captain Jack Sparrow is just sexy.
CORONA/SMIRNOFF:	Smirnoff. I don't do beer.
JACK DANIELS/JOSE CUERVO:	Jack Daniels. Obviously.
POOL/BOWLING:	Pool.
FLIP CUP/BEER PONG:	Neither.
MOVIE WITH FRIEND/MOVIE WITH GUY:	Friend, so I can actually focus on the movie.
FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS/RELATIONSHIP:	Relationship. Benefits confuse shit.
TRUTH/DARE:	Truth.
COUCH/BED:	Bed.
KARAOKE/SINGING IN THE CAR:	Singing in the car.
SHOWER/BATH:	Shower.
SNOW/RAIN:	Snow. Damn global warming.
LUST/LOVE:	L... um, I went to put lust, but I think ultimately it is love, even if my mind's all f'd up on the like/lust/love front lately.
MONEY/BRAINS:	Brains, even though money would be nice.
BEAUTY/SUCCESS:	Success.
MAKEOUT/MORE...:	Makeout, ha. I reeeeally like kissing.
IN A SIGNIFICANT OTHER!
IS THERE A CRITERIA?:	Oh, of course there's criteria, but ultimately most of that goes out the window if I just get in the same room with a person and am attracted.
DOES THIER PERSONALITY REALLY MATTER?:	Ha, yes, it matters the most, I'd say.
FRIENDS FIRST?:	Um, no. I'm pretty sure I always said yes to this before, but I'm seeing it's just easier to start out defined romantically instead of having to redefine anything.
HOW LONG BEFORE FOOLIN AROUND:	That depends on what you mean by fooling around ... a good enough time that all parties feel comfortable with it.
DOES SIZE MATTER?:	Ha, let's evade this by saying I don't have enough experience to tell you. =)
WOULD THEIR DRINKING OR DRUGS BOTHER YOU:	Drugs, yes, drinking only if it's crazy excessive.
DO YOU HAVE TO HAVE SAME TASTE IN MUSIC:	Nah, but it's nice.
HOW ABOUT MOVIES:	See above.
HOW ABOUT TATTOOS OR PIERCINGS:	Fine, as long as it's not too many.
LIFESTYLE
DO YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF A LOT:	Not a lot, I would say.
DO YOU WORK OUT:	No.
LIKE YOUR BODY?:	Not terribly.
DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS:	Clarinet. And I want to be stupid and buy a violin and somehow learn that.
DO YOU USUALLY EAT BREAKFAST:	No. Just because I run out of breakfast foods so quickly.
WHEN YOU'RE FEELIN DOWN, WHO DO YOU TALK TO:	Well, good question. I felt down today, and wanted to call someone, but then thought, no I need to establish a new 'calling someone' ritual. And sometimes I just feel a little too whiny to even call.
WATCH SPORTS?:	Just football, and mostly just OSU. I'll watch most big tournaments too (all sports).
DO YOU DO YOUR LAUNDRY, OR YOUR PARENTS:	I do it, thanks.
LIVE ALONE, OR WITH FAMILY:	Neither. I live with three other girls, none of whom are my family.
COLLEGE?:	Yeah, I'm in it.
YOU PARTY A LOT?:	No, not really. Ha, what's that "not really" -- more like very very little. I have to study my ass off just to not fail.
FAVORITE CELEBRITY:	I don't have a favorite celebrity...
ARE YOU A COWBOY HAT WEARING KIND OF PERSON?:	No.
HOW MANY CDS DO YOU HAVE?:	As far as online music, a lot.
SUPPORT THE TROOPS?:	No one doesn't support the troops.
RELIGION IMPORTANT TO YOU:	Not terribly. I think you have to have your spiritual views, but religion doesn't always have to factor into that.
YOUR MOST MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY:	Probably sixteenth.
FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME:	"Hallelujah" by Jeff Buckley, although I rarely listen to it. (I did so twice today.)
HOW MUCH TIME DO YOU SPEND ON YOUR COMPUTER:	A lot.
DO YOU WATCH A LOT OF TV?:	No.
LASTLY
DO YOU HATE REPETATIVE SURVEYS?:	Repetitive. And yeah.
HOW WAS THIS ONE?:	It was all right, thanks.
SONG THAT SUMS UP YOUR LIFE:	Right now I like "Hide and Seek."
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2006 is OVER
In 2006, did you...
fall in love with someone that was just a friend?:	Love is a big term. I fell in like with a friend, yeah. Love I would say no.
fall in love at all?:	Hmm, did I fallin love this year. Not with a new person, I would say.
lose any friends?:	Not in any significant way.
make any new friends?:	Yeah.
make any new enemies?:	New ones? Not really.
develop any new hobbies?:	Not really ... I already knitted.
get older?:	Uh, yeah. That's inevitable.
do anything you regret?:	Maybe. There are two things I can think of that I think I maybe just should not have done, even though ultimately they're both experiences and I'm learning.
go to any parties?:	Yeah.
accomplish anything?:	Yeah.
make much money?:	No. Fuck jobs.
attend a wedding?:	Yes, in May.
attend a funeral?:	I feel like yes, but I can't think of one. Maybe not, since I've been at school.
get any new family members?:	No.
move away?:	Sort of. I moved back from NY and then back to NY.
gain any new perspectives?:	Ohhhh yeah. If anything, this has been the year of gaining perspective, learning through bad experiences, and trying to avoid getting jaded.
get into a verbal fight?:	Oh sure.
get into a physical fight?:	No.
attend any sporting events?:	Yes, one Westland football game, one Clippers baseball game...I think that's it, sadly.
get arrested?:	No, thankfully.
wreck your car?:	No. Again thankfully.
get a new car?:	No. I like mine though.
make any big purchases?:	Not really. Most expensive was probably my books ($1000-ish).
get kicked out of a store, restaurant or any other kind of business?:	No.
get fired from a job?:	No.
get offered a job?:	No. Fuckers.
get a raise at a job?:	n/a.
learn anything?:	Yes.
dump your bf/gf?:	No.
get dumped by your bf/gf?:	No.
develop any new health problems?:	Not that I'm aware of.
change as a person?:	Oh yes. Definitely a year of change.
get any new piercings?:	No.
get any new tattoos?:	No.
attend a concert?:	Yes, James Blunt.
crowd surf?:	No.
travel out of state?:	Yes.
read any books?:	Yes, several. Found my current favorite.
travel out of the country?:	Yes, in January to Italy.
spend much money?:	Yeah, I have to provide for my own food now. I've already spent over $600 on that in the past four months.
download any music?:	Yeah.
try out any new looks?:	Not really. I discovered the joy of layering (oh god, I really do go to NYU).
sign up for a myspace?:	No, I think I did that before 2006.
sign up for a facebook?:	No, I know I did that before 2006.
eat a food that you had never eaten before?:	Oh yeah. Lots of Asian things due to Shirley, and other things as well. I'm a lot more adventurous with food than I used to be. I guess that's true in general as well.
go golfing?:	No. Never been.
go bowling?:	No.
go to many parties?:	Not many.
start to resent something or someone that you used to like?:	Oh yes. I usually go back to the liking though. I really think I'm too moody to ever really connect in certain ways.
In 2006, how many....
different places did you work?:	As in work for pay? Zero.
times did you go out drinking?:	Oh shoot, you expect me to have a number? I don't know ... um ... less than thirty probably. Maybe even less than twenty.
times did you smoke marijuana?:	Zero.
drugs did you take?:	Zero.
times did you have health problems?:	Nothing serious.
times did you go to the movies?:	Oh man, I don't remember. Probably around ... 20? But I know I've watched well over 100 movies this year, due to my Netflix and discovery of the love of film.
concerts did you attend?:	One, I think.
people did you make out with?:	Two.
people did you have sex with?:	Zero.
people tried to have sex with you?:	One.
times did you get your ass kicked?:	Zero.
crushes did you have?:	Oh, countless due to professors. Let's see if I can actually think of them ... okay, fourteen that I just thought of. So I like a lot of boys, what of it.
times did you attend church?:	Zero.
bad habits did you pick up?:	Um, at least a few.
"rough nights" did you have?:	See above. I'd say at least ten. Probably closer to thirty or so. Wait, school. Probably closer to like, sixty, actually.
In 2006, what was?
your favorite day of the year?:	I liked the end of the last semester, the beginning of this semester, and the middle of the summer, so I don't know.
your favorite band?:	In 2006, music-wise, I was into the Rockstar Supernova kids (particularly Magni, Storm, Toby, Lukas), the new John Mayer album, The Last Five Years, Rent, and mostly anything that was popular on the radio.
your least favorite day of the year?:	Shoot, I don't know. I don't want to know. Failing the second Orgo test sucked it.
your favorite movie?:	Of all time, it's still Casblanca. My favorite movie that came out this year, though, is Borat.
your favorite song of the year?:	Probably "SexyBack" by Justin Timberlake.
the most expensive thing you stole?:	I didn't steal anything to my knowledge.
the biggest event you attended?:	Freshman Convocation was huge, the James Blunt was a big event.
something that didn't change at all this year?:	That my hair is blonde. That's about all I can think of, because it's definitely been a year of change.
your favorite holiday?:	Still Christmas, but it hasn't come yet, so ... I really liked Red, White, and Boom/Independence Day. Halloween was fun this year as well. Thanksgiving was great, too, even though ... woo buddy it was dramatic.
Misc. questions about 2006 A.D.
were you in a hospital this year?:	I don't think so ... I definitely wasn't admitted to one.
were you in an ambulance this year?:	No.
did you make any big confessions in 06?:	Yeah. (Do one thing every day that scares you. F that, how about one per year. Because that shared the shit out of me, but I'm seeing ultimately it was good to push myself.)
did you make friends with anyone of the opposite sex that you love but only:	What?
embarrassed about anything you did this year?:	Yeah.
what's the best thing to happen to you this year?:	That I just got through all of it is commendable. Some serious shit has gone down this year.
did you meet anyone that you could see yourself marrying:	Maybe. I don't know anyone well enough for that yet, and I'm certainly in no position to decide yet.
did anyone you have no feelings for confess to having feelings for you?:	Not in words, no, but it was hinted at.
did you vote this year?:	No. Damn registration/absentee ballot deadlines!
did you bring sexy back this year?:	Oh hellzzzz yeah.
was 2006 a great year, an average year or a bad year?:	Um, it was an interesting year.
what goals did you set for 2007?:	Get better grades, continue the daring-ness (maybe, ha), get a fucking vet job (or at least experience with an actual vet).
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whispers 'hello, i miss you quite terribly.' i fell in love, in love with you suddenly.

AAAAAAAAAH. pete did it. -_-
Okay, so let`s get to know you.
full name:	Jessica. That's enough for now.
birthday:	July 15.
gender:	Female.
hair color:	Blonde.
eye color:	Green.
shoe size:	8.5.
ethinicity:	Caucasian.
heritage:	Irish.
pants size:	It depends on the brand.
glasses/contacts?:	Nope.
orientation:	Straight.
single/taken?:	Single.
Can you...
sing:	Yeah.
sing well:	Yeah.
sing REALLY good:	Ha, probably not REALLY well.
act:	Yeah, at least in everyday situations.
lie:	Yes.
play guitar:	No, though I want to learn.
listen to a song the whole way through:	Yes, but I do often have music ADD.
stand rap music:	Yes.
drive:	Yes.
pogo stick:	Maybe ... I haven't had the opportunity to try for awhile.
swim:	Yes, but not in a competitive way.
This or That
this or that:	This.
rap or rock:	Rock.
ice cream or milkshakes:	Ice Cream.
chocolate or vanilla:	Vanilla.
mint or strawberry:	Strawberry.
pencil or pen:	Pencil.
hair up or down:	Down.
cats or dogs:	Dogs.
fish or beavers:	Beavers.
crayons or markers:	Crayons.
red or yellow:	Red.
converse or vans:	Converse.
saturday or sunday:	Saturday.
sunny or rainy:	Sunny.
thunder or lightning:	Thunder.
fall out boy or panic! at the disco:	Panic lately. But I like them both pretty equally.
fall out boy or the killers:	Killers.
cheezits or cheese nips:	Cheezits. Though I really eat neither.
iPods or MP3 players:	iPod.
hot chocolate or chocolate milk:	Chocolate milk.
regular or digital camera:	Digital.
myspace or facebook:	Facebook, but only by a tiny margin now that it wants to be Myspace.
FIRST thing you think of. no lying. kay & thanks.
girls:	can be catty.
heart:	A doodle I draw really often.
rain:	Is nice yet annoying.
cow:	Moo.
sponge:	Eww.
fox:	And the hound.
cheerleader:	Rah rah.
emo:	Hair.
groovy:	70s.
sick:	Sweet.
Have you seen the movie...
the notebook:	Yes. I wanted to rent it lately, but then rethought that notion.
saw:	No.
saw II:	No.
finding nemo:	Yes. Cute.
peter pan:	Yes.
finding neverland:	Yes. Pretty sure I cried, but I can't remember for sure.
ferris bueller`s day off:	Yes. I love Cameron.
the lion king:	Yes.
she`s the man:	Parts of it. "Which one would you rather see neekkid!?"
scary movie:	No.
scary movie 2:	No.
scary movie 3:	No.
scary movie FOUR:	No.
harry potter:	Yes, all of them.
40 year old virgin:	Yes, multiple times. Hilarious.
Have you heard....
'sugar we`re goin down' - fall out boy:	Yes.
'the mixed tape' - jack`s mannequin:	No.
'i write sins not tragedies' - panic! at the disco:	Yes.
'mr brightside' - the killers:	Yes.
'chasing cars' - snow patrol:	Yes. I even have an acoustic version as of today.
'the girl`s a straight-up hustler' - all time low:	No.
'miss murder' - afi:	No.
'here it goes again' - OK Go:	Yes. Treadmills!
or at least seen the video? with treadmills?:	Ha, yes. I jumped the gun a bit there.
no? fuck you.:	Ha, wow. It's all over YouTube. Way too accessible to have not seen yet.
finish the sentence
i saw...:	your mom the other day. Except not.
last night i...:	watched Pirates 2 (and the kiss multiple times).
i love...:	my dog, Honey.
i can`t live without...:	water. Literally.
my passion is...:	animals, interacting with them.
llamas...:	are pretty sweet actually.
pete wentz...:	I think that's the Fall Out Boy guy.
the frohman...:	No clue.
i went to the store and bought...:	some groceries. That's all I buy anymore. That may change soon.
the moon is...:	incredibly relevant and present in my life.
the world...:	is a little off axis, I think.
i want...:	a violin. And a new laptop.
Last question, obvs 3:O)
YOUR MOM.:	Oh, ouch.
would you like some ICE for that BURN?:	Hey, that's Nathan's.
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Odd Questions
Do you chew on your homework:	No.
Pencils:	Not really.
Do you read the dictionary:	I have read small portions before. I like words.
Encyclopedia:	Ditto, for information.
Do you memorize random facts:	Sometimes.
Do you cut the grass with a pair of scissors:	No.
Do you bite yourself:	No.
Cut yourself:	No.
Do you have a cold right now:	No.
Are you happy with your life:	Somewhat.
How big is the universe:	Really big.
What’s your logic behind your answer:	General sense?
What do you dream about:	Lots of things.
Do you have AIM:	Yes.
whats your screenname:	Ha, not telling.
A neopets account:	No.
A quizilla account:	No.
A bzoink account:	Yes, but I don't store things anymore.
A myspace:	Yes.
Do you get attacked by ladybugs:	Not generally.
Are you scared of anything:	Yes.
What:	Dinosaurs, snakes, spiders, failure.
Do you have a microphone on your computer:	No.
A scanner:	Not on my computer, but I have one.
A printer:	Ditto.
A cordless mouse:	No.
Does your mouse light up:	No. It's a mousepad.
Do you have a cell phone:	Yes.
Do you enjoy school:	Eh, sometimes.
what color underwear are you wearing:	Black.
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Surreal Survey
Who the FREAK are YOU!?!
What is your name/alias?:	Jessica.
How old are you in dog years?:	I don't know, what is it ... seven? Okay, then, 133, I think. I did that in my head, I promise no accuracy.
Where do you hang your proverbial hat?(Where are you from?):	From Ohio...
Where are you at the moment?:	...currently in NYC.
Tell me what you want.
How do you like your eggs prepared?:	I don't eat eggs straight anymore.
How do you feel about music?:	I really like music. I was majoring in it more than once before.
What do you think of George W. Bush?:	I really dislike him. Or at least his policies.
Where in the world would you go if you had unlimited funds?:	Oh, many, many places. Definitely at this point England, Ireland, Spain, Australia, and probably Greece and somewhere South American and African.
What do you want to be when you grow up?:	Veterinarian.
What are you looking for in a partner?:	Intelligence, humor, passion, love.
What is your desired level of education?:	DVM. That D stands for Doctor, kids.
Tell me your favorite type of soup.:	Vegetarian Vegetable. But I really like most (non-chicken-based) soups.
What's you favorite kind of cheese?:	Probably Swiss, but I also like cheese a lot as well.
Deep, dark secrets from your past:
Have you ever picked up a hitcher?:	No. And I wouldn't. That freaks me out.
Do you ever karaoke all night long or Macarena till the break of dawn?:	Um, no. I've danced until the break of dawn, but not exclusively the Macarena.
Have you ever been mistaken for the opposite gender?:	Maybe when I was a baby.
Do you recycle?:	No, not really. =/
Ever peed in the snow?:	No.
Have you fallen asleep during a lecture on more than one occasion?:	Probably. Only for small moments, though, no more than a minute at a time.
Have you ever collected something embarrassing? If so, what was it?:	I think I used to collect rocks. and Beanie Babies. and Pogs. and Pokemon cards.
Ever heard of or listened to Weather Report?:	I don't think so ... I mean, in general, a weather report, yes, but "Weather Report" with the added special-ness of capitalization? No, I don't think so.
Ever been to a Drive-In Theatre?:	No. I'd like to, though.
Do you know how to read? If not, thank the person reading this to you. Now.:	Yes.
Forget Julie Andrews! What are YOUR favorite things?
Television Shows::	Grey's, House.
Comedians::	Mitch Hedberg.
Movies::	Casablanca, Garden State, Lost in Translation.
Books::	The Alchemist.
Types of Music::	Pop, rock, rap, classical, jazz.
Artists::	I'm sincerely all over the place. It depends on the day.
Activities::	Having fun, driving, shopping.
Subjects in School::	Bio (at least now), other things I do well in.
Places to hang out::	Backyards and basements.
Things to Daydream about::	Dangerous things.
Random Things::	My favorite random things? How does that even begin to be a coherent question.
Radio Stations::	WNCI, Z100.
Complete the following Sentences:
It is written...:	in stone?
I'm currently eating...:	nothing.
I love...:	to know things.
I hate...:	waiting.
I moderately dislike...:	wishy-washy ness.
The Ultimate Evil is...:	not something I can define.
Come with me now on a journey through time and space to the world of the...:	aliens?
I would really like to...:	get fucking good grades. Or at least decent ones. Geeze.
I have never...:	had sex. True story.
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Looking back on 2006
About You...
Name:	Jessica.
Nickname:	JRea.
How old were you in 2006?:	18 and 19.
What was the most important thing you discovered in 2006?:	That trying experiences are important.
What will you always remember about 2006?:	I don't know, lots of things. Deciding I wanted to be a vet? Going to Italy? Throwing myself out there like I usually don't?
In 2006 did you...
Keep your New Years resolution?:	I honestly don't remember what it was.
Go on a holiday?:	Not really, no.
Change jobs?:	No. Changed career paths, yes.
Buy anything from eBay?:	No.
Prank call someone?:	No.
Get drunk?:	Yes.
Get high?:	No.
Fall in love?:	Maybe.
Break up with someone?:	No.
Get married?:	No.
Get divorced?:	No.
Stop speaking to someone?:	Yes, momentarily.
Kiss someone?:	Yes.
Kiss someone whose name you can’t remember?:	Yes ... sort of. I never really knew his name.
Make a new friend?:	Yes. Lab partners mostly.
Do anything embarrassing?:	Oh, of course.
Do something that you thought that you would never do?:	Ohhhh yeah.
Do something you have always wanted to do?:	Yeah. Get drunk and dance and kiss. Amongst others.
Do anything that you regret?:	Yeah, I guess. Ultimately I can't regret anything because it's a wasted energy, but there are a few things I look back thinking I shouldn't have done.
Do anything illegal?:	Yeah.
Break a promise?:	Maybe.
Lose something?:	Probably.
Go crazy?:	Yeah, a few times.
Best of 2006...
Movie:	Oh, I don't remember all the movies. Best one I can remember being introduced to this year was Lost in Translation.
TV Show:	Grey's. Easily.
Song:	Haaa most indicative is probably "London Bridges" or "SexyBack" but I don't knwo if either are really the best.
Album:	I really love John Mayer's Continuum, but I don't really buy that many albums nowadays.
Thing you bought:	I really love my shoes, but probably my watch actually.
Memory:	Closeness in general.
Worst of 2006...
Movie:	I really didn't enjoy About Schmidt when I watched it.
TV Show:	I don't watch it if it's the worst. I watch very little TV nowadays.
Song:	All the songs I've hated I've grown to love for their annoyingness, so I don't know.
Album:	See above how I don't really do albums anymore.
Hangover:	Ha, I haven't really had a hangover. Maybe Thanksgiving weekend when I kept waking up with headaches. Was that alcohol-related? Maybe.
Memory:	Waaaaiting. And being taken advantage of. (Different circumstances.)
About 2007...
What do you want in 2007?:	I want resolution, I was determination, and I want good results.
Is there anything you would do differently in 2007?:	I'd like to say study harder, but I already study pretty hard. Maybe waste less time on the computer. Time is for living, not waiting.
Do you think it will be a good year?:	I can only hope so. I'll turn 20, and lord knows I need some good to get me through the crisis that will inevitably be.
What do you look forward to most about 2007?:	Being able to take some classes I like, hopefully. Hopefully closing the book on some unresolved chapters of my life, whichever way the story proceeds to go after that.
Do you have a New Years resolution?:	Maybe. I don't really think about them until right around December 31st, and then I make them pretty general goals.
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you never spoke a word, but it's over -- i saw the way you turned your head

I just did like, six, and they all got deleted. Motherfucker.

I pretty much hate technology.

And I'm so damn cantankerous lately.

I guess I just want answers to things I've waited too long for. Aka, there are like, three people/entities that should be calling me soon. And they probably won't.

EVS.

and if we make it 'til then, can i ask you again for another ten?

130 Random Questions
When was the last time you cried?:	I guess I technically cried yesterday.
Have you ever faked sick?:	I've probably exaggerated sickness, and lied about being sick when I wasn't, but actually acting out a fake sickness, not really.
What was the last lie you said?:	H'oh goodness ... I probably said yesterday that I was fine when I wasn't. Really, I don't think I've lied today. That's crazy! (I haven't really said much, though. Ha.)
Have you ever cried during a movie?:	Oh yes, of course.
Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?:	Uh, pleading the fifth. Sometimes there are random people on the street where you just catch each others eye ... that's an odd phenomenon. But that's not terribly relevant.
Have you ever danced in the rain?:	Yes.
Have you ever been drunk?:	Yes, but not a lot.
Have you ever tried tried drugs?:	No.
Do you smoke?:	No.
What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare?:	Oh, not very far. I don't really do dares.
What is your full name?:	JNR.
What is your blood-type?:	A positive, I believe.
Have you ever been in a car accident?:	Yeah.
How old were you when you recieved your first kiss?:	Ha, when I received it. Who's to say I didn't take it, hmm? Nah, I received it. Ha. 16.
Who was your first kiss?:	Oh geeeze, I divulged the age, that's all you're getting. =)
Have you ever had an online relationship?:	No. I've had relationships that *include* online interactions, but never one that was entirely online.
Have you ever had phone-sex?:	Only with those late-night date phone lines. Ha. Or not.
Have you ever been rejected by a crush?:	Yeah, at least in indirect ways. I usually don't put myself in the position for direct rejection.
What is your favourite sport to play?:	I don't really do sports.
Have you ever made a prank phone call?:	Yeah, but definitely not recently. Middle school comes to mind.
Have you ever said "I Love you" and not meant it?:	No. When I say it outloud to another person for the first time, I want to mean it. So I'm keeping it kind of sacred until that moment I'm sure.
What's your favourite childhood memory?:	I don't know, several of them. Mostly childhood adventures that seemed so big at the time.
Is there anything that you have done that you regret?:	In small ways, yes, but ultimately no.
What do you want to be when you grow up?:	Veterinarian.
What is your political persuassion?:	Liberal.
Have you ever had cybersex?:	Interesting. Sort of.
Do you believe in g-d?:	I believe in God.
Do you believe in love at first sight?:	I believe in knowledge at first sight. Looking back, I only knew that this was going to be huge. I didn't actually know how big yet.
Do you believe in karma?:	Yes.
Who was your first crush?:	Devin in kindergarten. All I remember is that he had brown hair and a purple-haired Troll in a karate outfit. That's ridiculous, how memory works.
Who do yo uhave a crush on?:	Well, according to the definition " an intense but usually short-lived infatuation," ... I don't know. Honestly, I'm too deep in things to define them.
How would you describe yourself?:	In regards to what?
What are you afraid of?:	The unknown, failure, snakes, spiders, dinosaurs.
Are you religious?:	No, not really.
What does your screen name mean?:	It means nothing really.
What person do you trust the most?:	Probably either my mom, my dad, or Tricia.
Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend?:	Well, that depends on how early you allow the list to begin. Either David or Mike, I suppose.
What is the best compliment you have ever recieved?:	Ever? That's too high of a bar.
What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you?:	Ditto.
What is the longest crush/relationship you have had?:	Oh, I can crush for a ridiculously long time. Years. And yet the relationship part ... it has occurred to me recently that I don't think I really know how to be in a relatio
What is your greatest strength?:	nship, how to exist in one. I get caught up. /// Oh, I don't know. I have to leave, hurry up with the q's!
What is your greatest weakness?:
What is your perfect pizza?:
What is your first thought when waking up in the morning?:
What is your first thought before you go to bed?:
What college do you want to go to?:
Do you get along with your family?:
Do you play any instruments?:
What kind of music do you like?:
Do you think you're attractive?:	It depends on the day.
Would you ever get a tattoo?:	Maybe. The permanence worries me.
How many piercings do you have?:	Four, technically. Ears twice each. I had a fifth in my ear cartilage, but that grew back.
Who makes you laugh?:	My friends, a lot of my family.
Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours?:	Probably no one.
Have you ever seen a dead body?:	Yes, at funerals and such.
Do you have a celebrity crush?:	Oh I have many.
What is one thing scientists should invent?:	Cures for diseases like AIDS and cancer.
Have you ever broken a bone?:	Yes.
What happens after you die?:	As if I know.
Do you watch or read the news?:	Read usually.
What stereotype would you label yourself as being?:	I don't know, college pre-med student?
Would your friends agree with that stereotypic label?:	Some of them.
If yo ucould change your name, what would you change it to?:	I wouldn't.
If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go:	Oh goodness ... maybe some moments in high school, the first year maybe.
If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change?:	Oh, I don't know.
Have you ever gone skinny dipping?:	No.
Have you ever played strip poker?:	No.
Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves?:	Yes.
What do you want your friends to think about you?:	I just took a really long surveymonkey survey about this, I don't feel like doing it again.
Whats the biggest argument you've ever gotten into?:	Probably something with my mother.
HAve you ever bitten someone?:	Probably. (Seriously!? SERIOUSLY.)
When's your birthday?:	July 15.
Have you ever stolen anything?:	Probably.
Do you make wishes on shooting stars?:	Yes.
Whats the most you've ever eaten in one sitting?:	Oh goodness, probably either at a Thanksgiving or at The Refectory.
If you could go back and change one day, what would it be?:	I have no clue. Change bothers me.
Do you remember your dreams?:	Yes, quite often. Right after I wake up, if I feel them slipping, I make it a point to remember everything I can -- usually most important are the faces, the people.
Have you ever been in love?:	You know, I really don't know. I know I've felt some pretty strong feelings about some people in my life, but I also would like to think that there's something more out there. But I don't know if I'll ever feel okay saying there isn't something more to discover, so it complicates things.
Are you a morning person or a night person?:	Night, definitely. I either sleep or gripe through the morning.
Do you have any phobias?:	Yeah, I'm actually pretty illogically but terrifically terrified of dinosaurs. And I really don't appreciate spiders or snakes.
What's the meanest thing you've ever done to someone?:	Um, well, probably asking them to wait, leading them on, when I knew it was over. That's really just essentially using a person. I wonder if he sees it the same way. We never discussed it. Maybe he doesn't. Nonetheless, I feel a little bad about still to this day. I should have been strong enough to act on how I felt instead of how I wanted to feel.
Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth?:	Yes, several times, but not too often anymore.
How many screen names do you have?:	One.
Do any medical problems run in your family?:	Probably. I'm old enough now that I should know this stuff, but I don't.
Have anyone ever been disowned from your family?:	Maybe. At least for a little bit.
Have you ever had a nightmare?:	Oh yes. They're terrible. Un cauchemar. They usually involve people dying, and then upon waking I feel such a pull to make sure everyone is still okay in this world. It's awful to wake up crying.
Do you say meaner things to your friends or your enemies?:	Oh, friends for sure. They know I don't mean it most of the time. And my enemies ... I'm better at just distancing myself from people I don't like, not actually aggressively confronting them.
Would you ever participate in a threesome?:	It would depend on the third person, but yeah, I'm not going to say I would never.
Would you ever pay for a prostititue?:	Ha, probably not, but who's to say what will come in the future? Maybe that will become a reality, I have no way to tell you which direction anyone's life -- particularly my own -- will go.
Have you ever mooned or flashed someone?:	No.
Have you ever cheated on your bf/gf?:	No.
Have you ever laughed so hard you peed in your pants?:	Ha, probably.
Have you ever written a love letter?:	Yes, a few, but I've never sent one.
Have you ever attempted suicide?:	No.
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?:	Well, neither for myself.
Have you ever been in a fistfight?:	No.
Do you have any hidden talents?:	Not really.
What is one thing you want me to know about you?:	I don't really feel that you must know anything.
What is one question you wouldn't want me to ask?:	My grades. And I won't be answering if you do.
Do you usually prefer books or movies?:	Well, it depends. In general, probably movies. But most book to movie franchises are better as the book.
Who is your favourite person to talk to?:	Either someone who is very far away, someone I hardly ever see, or someone who I don't talk to much now.
Who is always able to cheer you up when you're sad?:	A few of my friends.
Would you ever have sex before marriage?:	Yes. I feel like it's important to know all of yourself before you can say up there that you're going to essentially give all of yourself to someone, and that "all" encompasses your sexual self as well. That's not to say to throw it away, but I don't think it's entirely smart to enter into a union with someone until you know yourself and you know them as well, and that includes a lot of facets.
Who do you talk to most on the phone?:	No one any more. Maybe Tricia.
Do you have a secret that yo'ure ashamed of?:	Perhaps a little, but it's the kind of messed up thing that you kind of don't care that it's shame-worthy, you almost feel proud of it.
Do you prefer british or american spelling of words?:	American, considering I know it.
Have you ever gotten detention?:	Yes, once.
How do you vent your anger?:	I generally pace, sing loudly to angry songs, write long letters to parties involved that are never sent.
Have you ever been on a diet?:	Yeah.
Would you ever date someone younger than you? Older than you?:	Yes. Yes.
Is your best friend a virgin?:	I have more than one best friend, and I don't feel like sharing their secrets, but some of them are and some of them aren't, and that is all I will say.
What's a rumor someone has spread about you?:	That I hit her car and then ran. I seriously don't know if I'll ever get over that because it was just so shitty and such a lie and people freaking believed it so easily. That's probably what upset me more, that people spread and believed it for months until they (and this was only some of them, a small fraction I'm sure) finally sucked it up and asked me if there was any truth to the situation. Shocker: there wasn't.
What's the kinkiest thing you could ever actually see yourself as doing?:	Oh, I don't know. I don't fashion myself very prudish on the subject.
What's the meanest thing anyone has ever done to you?:	I don't know. I'd rather not reflect long enough to give an answer.
What's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?:	And I don't have the energy for this one.
Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental illness?:	No.
Have you ever cut yourself on purpose?:	No.
Have you ever wanted to murder someone?:	Not really.
Have you ever hated someone?:	I'd like to think I only strongly dislike people. Hate is really too much for my life -- I'd rather say I never helped it foster.
Do you prefer talking on the phone or online?:	It depends on the person and the situation. I like the reality of the phone, how you can discern what people really mean to say, and it's definitely plus proche than AIM or email. But at the same time, sometimes you need that distance, that time to formulate what you want to really give or not give, and that slight veil to allow multiple interpretations.
Do you consider yourself popular?:	Not terribly. Not terribly not, I guess. Certainly not at NYU, but it's so big I don't even know if I can think of anyone as "popular."
Would you ever tell the person you have a crush on that you like them?:	Ha. Yeah. But it doesn't happen often. As in ... twice, maybe? That's like, once every ten years. Damn.
Have you ever had a crush on an enemy?:	Maybe in the small way that hate has a part of love in it as well.
Have you ever had a crush on a best friend?:	Yes. Oh wow ... mini-epiphany. You know those one-a-ten-years confessions we just covered? I realized both of those were with good friends. So apparently that is the key. That and sustainability. Interesting, the patterns.
What is your favourite book?:	The Alchemist.
Do you have a collection of anything?:	I accumulate things, but I don't know if I specifically collect anything.
Are you happy with the person you are becoming?:	I don't know. It's all up in the air for now, my life.
Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago?:	Oh certainly. How old was I ... fourteen? Oh goodness. I think ... wow, oh my god. That was five years ago? That situation? Five years already? That feels like yesterday. But fourteen itself feels very far away, yes, and I'm incredibly incredibly different from who I was then. People grow, people change, and things certainly happen between now and then.
What do you see yourself as being in 5 years from now?:	24? Who's to know. If I made predictions, they'd certainly be wrong. I don't know ... hopefully I'll be in vet school. I don't see now any likelihood that I'll be married, but who knows. Maybe.
Are you happy with the life you have?:	Sometimes. Yeah. It's not a bad one. But everyone has problems.
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it's not hard to grow, when you know that you just don't know

In 2006 I..

(it must be that time again, for the 'end of the year' or 'year in review' surveys -- even though it's only the first, okay technically second, day of december)

[x] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x] kissed someone new
[x] made out
[ ] made out in a car
[ ] kissed in the snow
[ ] kissed in the rain
[ ] had my heart broken
[ ] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[x] lost a friend
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[ ] questioned my sexual orientation
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[x] kissed someone of the same sex-on the cheeks!
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[ ] lost my true love
[x] lost faith in love (I got it back though, thanks)
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got a promotion
[ ] got a pay raise
[x] changed jobs (ideas of what I want as one, at least)
[ ] lost my job
[ ] quit my job
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[ ] got straight A's
[x] met a teacher who I became friends with
[x] met a teacher who I really hate
[x] found the subject I love
[ ] failed a class
[x] cut class
[x] skipped school
[ ] got in a fight with a classmate
[x] did something I was proud of
[ ]discovered a new talent
[x] proved myself an idiot
[ ] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[ ] fell in love with a teacher (in like, yes, but not love)
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[ ] ran a mile 2000 times (that's over five miles a day -- geeeze)
[x] listened to music I couldnt stand (ew to the devil class)
[x] double dipped
[ ] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[ ] went to a campground
[ ] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried
[x] flirted shamelessly
[x] visited a foreign country
[x] visited a foreign state (I don't think we call them foreign...)
[x] cooked a disastrous meal (things burn ... it happens)
[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[ ] dyed my hair
[ ] came close to losing my life
[ ] someone close to me died
[x] went to a wild party
[ ] got arrested
[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[x] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[x] snuck out
[ ] got in trouble with police
[ ] kissed in a pool
[ ] kissed under the stars
[ ] smoked
[x] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[ ] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool
[ ] made a snowman
[ ] went snowboaring
[ ] went sledding
[x] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someones hand that you care about
[ ] got wasted in Mexico
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[ ] gone on vacation
[ ] gone on vacation with a friend
[x] driven a car
[ ] played strip poker
[x] danced in the rain
[ ] got in a car accident
[x] seen someone get in a car accident
[ ] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year (they're all amazing in ways, I suppose ... this one has been more the let's learn from our mistakes year)
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[ ] got a new pet
[x] enjoyed this year overall











Apparently this is the Proust Questionnaire. At least, some version of it.


Your most marked characteristic? I care (whether it is about you, what someone thinks, myself, an object or event -- I don't think I've spent a single complacent moment in my life). Or, I am always thinking.

The quality you most like in a man? It is cliche, but true: a sense of humor. And that doesn't mean you have to make a whole room laugh, it doesn't mean you can't do that either -- it just means that you make me laugh. If I need anything consistently, it is laughter.

The quality you most like in a woman? Strength. The women I have admired most over the years have been unapologetic and unafraid in their strength.

What do you most value in your friends? That sense of connection, that you can share something with them and it means something, that they can know what you mean without having to stumble yourself over endless tirades of words which don't ultimately portray what you wanted anyhow. Comfort, honesty, knowing what I need when I need it, being able to be both serious and fun.

What is your principle defect? Probably that I tend to self-sabotage. I don't know if I have a problem being happy, but I know that if I don't have at least a few things to worry about, then I get worried by just that.

What is your favorite occupation? I have not tried many yet, but I do think veterinarian is the one for me. Besides that, acting (which ultimately I will not do, but I do think is something that highly appeals to me), teaching, and being an astronaut (I've always wanted to see Earth from space).

What is your dream of happiness? I do not dream to be completely content; that would be unattainable and disconcerting anyway. I suppose happiness for me is more waking up every day excited to live, to be with the people and places and objects within my life for yet another day. A sense of joy, a sense of excitement, a sense of want.

What to your mind would be the greatest of misfortunes? I think it would be incredibly unfortunate to not be able to laugh and just relax from time to time. I also think losing all your connections (human relationships, I mean) would be devastating, for I find I define large parts of myself based on these interactions. I'd also rather not be left alone while all those (people, things) I love are taken away.

What would you like to be? I would like to be an alive, loving, and truly living (not just existing) person who fulfills herself and others through her life.

In what country would you like to live? I'd greatly love to live in France. I might answer other places if I had confirmed with a visit my idealistic view of them (Ireland and England most prominently), but for now France (and particularly Paris) is my destination of sorts that I keep running to.

What is your favorite color? Cerulean. And I like many sorts of green, most of them the deep, dark, evergreen variety. And dark purples, and rich reds, and always black for clothing. I think I like cerulean first as a word (the vowels are so wonderful -- formidable) and then as a color.

What is your favorite flower? I love lillies. It took me awhile to figure this out; I thought rose, I thought tulip, I tried to pick rarer flowers perhaps to seem more unique myself, but lately I have come to find every flower I find exquisitely beautiful is a form of a lily.

What is your favorite bird? I don't know that I've ever thought about this question before. I like the little, quaint sparrows. And also the birds that were outside my window when we lived on Harwood that I still hear occasionally, the ones I used to call back to and we'd have a whole days worth of conversation. My whistles became our words.

Who are your favorite prose writers? I know that many will hate him when/if they read him, but Paulo Coehlo. Also, Shakespeare has a way with prose. I do enjoy F. Scott Fitzgerald's sentence structure -- it reminds me of my own (which is probably selfishly why I like it). I also enjoy Vonnegut (thanks to Buck -- I remember Cat's Cradle seemed infinitely odd to me).

Who are your favorite poets? Shakespeare again has a way with poetry, though I actually prefer his prose (it's largely poetic anyway, but focuses more on turns of language in the way I enjoy). I like Emily Dickinson on certain days, and usually only after someone has explained them to me (exception: Heart! We will forget him!). I had a fondness for Rosetti during high school, but I never read her anymore (it makes me feel ... mushy). I tried to pick up Rilke last year, but found I liked his prose better as well. Poetry doesn't always sit well with me. I always feel that I'd like it just a little better in prose.

Who is your favorite hero of fiction? I don't know if I could possibly have a favorite hero of fiction. I greatly enjoy them flawed.

Who are your favorite heroines of fiction? See above.

Who are your favorite composers? I love Mozart, which I know is cliche, but is so very, very true. I feel like he's a real musician's composer. He writes the most beautiful (sounding and feeling, when played) runs for woodwinds/strings. It's just fantastic. And I've never gotten ahold of anything of his (save most of the requiem ... I'm just not into the choral-ness, apparently) that I didn't sit down in parts and think -- genius. I also like Schumann, Bach's cello suites, Gershwin (even though he has mostly happy stuff -- Rhapsody in Blue made me want to play clarinet).

Who are your favorite painters? My favorite painters are Van Gogh (less of the Cubism stuff) mostly for sentimentality's sake, Renoir (probably my ultimate favorite), and really those are the only two I love. Anything grand and impressive -- but real-looking; I don't like to reach new standards of weird with paintings -- will probably attract my attention, at least for a few minutes, on some scale.

Who are your heroes in real life? My parents undoubtedly because I can imagine what a trial it is just to simply live, let alone to have children and complicate it all infinitely.

What is it you most dislike? I most dislike not being given a chance at all.

What natural gift would you most like to possess? I would like to possess the ability to hear something once and retain it. I'd also like to be able to dance, ballet and the sort.

How would you like to die? I'm sure I'd want to at some point, but I know I'd want it to have some sort of awareness to it. I don't want to just die in my sleep -- I like to wake up, I do. And it's death. There has to be some significance there, some knowledge, some experiencing of it. You only die once. You only end what you've worked on for years and years once. That can't just pass without recognition. But at the same time, I'd rather it not be excruciating, long, or slow.

What is your present state of mind? Presently, I am tired. I am also dejected that my step up was not met by another person; I truly wanted the situation to work out, either way, and now it appears as if it cannot. I am worried, as always, but relatively calm, again as usual. I have a nagging voice telling me I'm going to fail at life, again, as usual.

To what faults do you feel most indulgent? Being late. Eating badly from time to time. Hitting snooze on the alarm too much. Procrastinating. Not calling anyone back or even answering my phone in the first place. Being selfish.

What is your motto? I don't think I could sum it up here. I don't even know if I have one. They change from year to year, day to day. I make them fit my mood and days as I do anything else. Perhaps, to live, presently, and often.